How easily my head flips and flops around is sheer justification that I am a little bit uneasy or possibly a nutcase. Hopefully it's not the later of the two.
One day I'll be fine, the next day I won't be, the day after that I'm fine again. It's always, always, always the same thing bothering me. I won't go into it, because frankly, I feel that I've gone into it way too many times. I just don't know anymore.
fudge.
I really miss Michigan and the food and people and all of that jazz that's going on there. I guess I'm just ready to move on with my life and honestly I wish that I had some security. That's life though, take whatever comes at you, no security.
The lease expires on the apartment soon, we're moving out. Keeping it in Brooklyn, unless we MAGICALLY find a super affordable (and I won't say cheap because I learned in school that it's a no-no word) apartment in the city. People are always shocked that I have this huge, massive, tourist destination to call my home and yeah, it's great at times but at others it's the same as being downtown Detroit or in Butte, Montana. It all gets to be the same after a while. I don't know if it's a change of setting that I need or just a change of lifestyle.. but something's got to give. I'm not happy. I don't know if I'm ever truly happy, I may just be fooling myself.
The people at my school are not my friends. My boyfriend isn't really my boyfriend. My life isn't really all that enjoyable. Things are becoming mundane, and I don't know what to do about it.
it's all about you and although you do not read this. it's all about you.
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