drubk.

my cab driver in the AM told me about his daughter that killed herself six months ago, she was 21. He told me that he wishes he were dead instead of her and that his life is now empty.

He keeps two korean rice cakes on the dashboard of his taxi next to her picture. He was very proud of her, as well as all of his offspring.

He is a good fella'. I can tell. His other two remaining children are math teachers and one is a doctor. They're all really great sounding.

He told me to not marry for the rich because they will never make me happy, marry someone that is artistic and just because I'm 21 doesn't mean anything, I can find someone whenever and I shouldn't be in a rush. HE is right.





today was moving.

I'm on the MaryKate diet.

today's meals consist of:
-one medium soy vanilla late from starbucks (unlike MK I don't get the fat-free nor sugar free version)
-one Challah roll with butter
-one granola bar (organic) with chocolate chips.


I sit here sipping my starbucks and listening to the Rapture, ahhhhhh eeehhh oooh ohhhhhh.... (pant pant pant)... I've got the caffine buzz going, I'm not wearing pants and dancing around.

LIFE IS GREAT!



what for dinner tonight? I made some red curry, coconut, tofu with fresh onions, beans, and corn over long grain brown rice. I'm quite the chef, unfortunately it wasn't as good as I was hoping. Not spicy enough and I like tripled the amount of Red Chili paste I put in it too! WEEEOoooOOO!


nat-tat-tatalie wants to take photos of me in my apartment. I'm down with it, the half olive, half white primer, one pink corner room. I kind of like it and I'm WAY too lazy to paint the rest of it, OH AND TOOOOO BROKE!








cock-tail par-tay with caitlin in ONE WEEK EXACTLY!! :) I am totally excited for this. I hope AMY can come and JESSI. AND I forgot to mail ANDREW's invite out. WE invited more MENZ than WOMENZ ... don't come here lookin' for some action men.. the pickings will be slimmm!

--

why is everyone changing?

congratulations ... go home.

I
will
be
something
amazing.

You'll see.

I'm
already
something
amazing.

You've missed out.

I
will
age
wonderfully.

You'll look frail.

I
will
travel
all over.

You will stay put.

I
will
be
happy.

You will too,
but not happy like I am.





now it just makes me feel better to know that while you sit around doing "something," I'm going somewhere.

Even if you're doing something, guess what, it could have always been better. always better.

HEY YOU..

don't touch my stuff.

don't let your friends touch my stuff.

this is my space (not the internet website) .. not a shared space.

This is unacceptable.



my computer has important things on it that I don't want other people to be messing around with.

pissy pissy piss.


dinner.

pink and brown babies in pink stroller cars.

disconnected and deleted.


you're gone. no friendship. no nothing. I'm quite glad.

I guess this is just a step in the right direction for me.


blocked.
private.
deleted.


allelectronic. don't contact me, because I really don't want to hear from you, e v e r a g a i n .


Unless, of course, because I never rule out the fact that someone may actually turn into someone loyal and understanding and FRIENDLY again, but I highly doubt it, you schmuck.

bonfire tomorrow - may freeze. easy e.

sometimes when I drink I feel like my legs are moving faster than the rest of my body.


I went to 2 irish pubs and literally they both had irish accents. Woodside is great. I have roaches. I bought raid and sprayed... THAT RHYMES.


hanging out with sean soon, hoorah!